I decided to start writing in here to share and keep track of all the babyness that's going on.

So far, all my doctors appointments have been happy and positive. The first ultrasound showed nothing wrong and that our little baby was a girl :) She gave us a picture of her "girl parts" in case we wanted to have it o_O "Oh, and here's the first time we her vagina! Aww." lol

We decided on the name Hailey Marie after finding out she was a girl. I'm still debating on either Marie or Elizabeth. Elizabeth is my mom's and my middle name. It would only make sense. Plus Ray picked out Hailey, so I get the middle name >:[ lol I think Hailey is a perfect name though, its not too girlish or boyish, and I don't know about you, but I only know like, one Hailey.

I went for my 3rd doctors appointment last month and it was the first time I got to hear her heartbeat. It was hard to hear though because she was hiccuping! ^_^ It was scary at first cause it was like a deep growl, like a dog bark, lol. I was like, oh no, her heart is bad :( But the doctor smiled and was like, she's hiccuping! :) Hiccuping help develop the diaphragm and it means that she has vocal chords now :)

I just went to my 4th appointment on the 25th and my mom came with me. We got to hear her heartbeat, without the hiccuping, this time. It was perfect! She read off all my health tests and I am perfectly healthy, woo. Not only am I perfectly healthy, but Hailey is.

I gained 12 freaking pounds O_O But the doctor says that only my belly will get bigger since I am skinny to begin with.

I got fired from the animal shelter because of my pregnancy, but there isn't anything I can do about it since they have under 15 employees. And then I got an interview from the Michigan Humane Society, but I had to tell them I was pregnant, so they couldn't hire me :( The only way I am getting money is from helping people out. I worked a Saturday at Thunder bowl for my dad, at the birthday parties, and got cash up front. But they haven't called me back since, and it was a month ago. I also dog sat for Julie for 3 days, but that money is almost gone.

So, if you need help with anything, pet sitting, anything pet related like walking, bathing; house sitting, whatever you can think of. I really need the money to buy a crib, clothes, changing table; pretty much everything a baby needs besides a super cute stuffed animal...cause I have that...don't worry...lol

Or if you know of any one giving away or selling baby stuff, any store sales, anything to help out would be awesome.

I am also going to post pictures here, some you haven't seen yet too, for those of you who have seen my myspace ones.

( Baby Hailey )

5 months!
woahhhhh.

and we're still going strong ^_^

So we get the new calendar and its sitting on the table. I go, "Nick, do you know any of these people?" as I pick up the calendar. I paused and went, "Wait a minute, I know these people!"

lol Kelli, David, Sara, and two other people (plus a lot of children) were on there. WEIRD.

  



     I have decided to write in my journal again. Not that i expect anyone to read it; its just nice to write things down and have them out there.
   
    Ever since high school ended, I have lost touch with most of the people I associated myself with. It doesn't bother me too much, I still talk to and hang out with the "Amber side" and the "JD side". Thats basically how my friends are divided up. The Amber side, being my best friend thats a girl, with all my friends that are girls...and David... Then the JD side, my best guy friend, with all my friends that are guys. I have a great time just hanging out with JD, but I don't like facing reality, knowing that eventually I wont talk to anyone, even though I want to. It just happens. Like, when we made the jump from middle school to high school, you left behind lots of friends even though they were still there in class with you. You just move on whether you like it or not. Its sad to think about it, but you never really see your parents or other adults saying, "I'll be back later, I am going to my friend's house!" or, "I am going to go spend the night at my friend's house!" I wish it were like that, although, if my plan to not have kids sticks, I could probably do that...

    Until I turn 18, in 2 months and 8 days, I am going to be doing the exact thing I am doing right now; worrying about being alone and growing up and just sleeping in to 3:30pm. Although, I can't wait to get my own place, work at Petco, and volunteer/work at the Michigan Humane Society, I just don't want to do it all alone. Even though I don't want to do anything alone in the first place. The only things I do alone are the obvious shower, sleep, or play video games, but the only thing I do alone is walk around. I actually like it, its just quiet and I can think clearly. It would be nice to have someone to walk with, but not just anyone, someone who will just walk quietly next to me, holding my hand. Not being able to do stuff alone has really affected me at times. I waited over a year to take driver's training segment 2 just because I had no one to do it with. Finally I went, but then wished that no one I knew was there. I can't understand myself at times. I am very dependent and I wish I wasn't, because now that I am out of school, there is no one to be dependent on. The other day a boy asked me if I wanted to play in the rain and go for a walk. For those of you who don't know, thats like, my dream guy right there if someone were to ask me that. But I said no... Just because I didn't want to go alone. There always needs to be 3 with me and I hate it.

    I think I have insomnia too. I wake up at 3:30pm and by 1am I am pretty tired, like right now, but if I try to sleep, I can't. Like, my eyes wont stay shut. So I think about everything in my head with my eyes closed until I finally open them and notice that its 4am. I can't go to bed earlier than 4am, even if I am tired and I try. I don't like waking up that late, even though I don't do anything until after 6pm.

    I think my whole problem is just, I need a boy. Like, seriously. In school I at least had my 'eye candy' [lol troy] But now there is like, no way for me to meet anyone new, and when I do I just know that it would never work. Maybe I will find someone at Petco, lol. They could be an axe murderer for all I know, but it wouldn't matter because its a boy that works at Petco <3 hah. Just kidding.

    I am really not this troubled, this is just me writing down what I've thought about. I am really fine, I've been having a fun time with my friends. I just wish I were a little careless and loosen up.

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- May 25th - Got out of school
- May 26th - Nothing
- May 27th - Nothing
- May 28th - Nothing
- May 29th - Nothing
- May 30th - Graduation rehersal
- May 31st - Cedar Point
- June 1st - Nothing
- June 2nd - Nothing
- June 3rd - Graduated
- June 4th - Nothing
- June 5th - Nothing
- June 6th - Nothing
- June 7th - Nothing
- June 8th - Visited the High School
- June 9th - Nothing

now what?

3 1/2 days!!!!!!!!!

I gave Zoey a bath today!!!!

I need to clean my room!!!!

I need to do my reviews!!!!

I have a day for my graduation party!!!

I just ate cheese and crackers!!!

Tomorrow is our Last Tuesday in High School!!!!

I have to go to the city council meeting tomorrow for extra credit!!!

I can make phone calls now instead of saying, "No mom, you do it, they will grab me through the phone and kill me." !!!!

 I am going to bed!!!!

!!!

idk what it is about warm chocolate chip cookies that compells me to drink milk.

Lactose intolerant!

I went to Government today and there were only 5 other people there. Then I got called out at 9 to go to EMU for Fast Track. I mean....no...i was skipping like the rest of the seniors.......lol. It was SO LONG. I almost fell asleep. And th lady that scheduled my classes didn't know anything about working with animals, she's like "The only thing i know of that has to do with animals is a vet." So she gave me biology and chemistry, but i can always change it. It was 5 hours, but we got there at 11 then got home at 5:20. I was so tired! I also signed up to be in the concert band. They have an arcade that is SO FREAKING COOL. I will spend my time there FOREVER lol.

I got an application from VCA so hopefully that will work out or something. Idk what I would do, probably sit behind the desk and be like what's your dogs name...That'd be cool though...if I decide to turn it in that is...

I am going to relay for life tomorrow, idk how that going to turn out, but i think Kemp is going =]

I AM SO TIRED

Graduate or not graduate?

That is the gayest question that I have to work my a$$ off for...

My wills got soo messed up, lol. There were other people's mixed in with other people and omg, it was bad lol. But oh well, I explained to the ones that got essed up how to find them.

I also felt bad because I based my wills on the roster, and there were a lot of people not on there that I really wanted to put on there. {JD, Ben, Pike, and then I didn't even look at colorguard but I wanted to put amanda, kylie, and emily up there too!}

Then my speech was good, although I wanted to say more than I did. I was going to mention my friends of this year and the fact that most people were wearing polka dots...lol.

But those are just little things, its not like since i didn't mention anyone its the end of the world. I am still going to be at my house for like, 2 more years lol. I'll be happy to hang out whenever.

All in all the banquet was amazing. I finally got to see it from a senior's prospective, me being the senior. lol

"I love this woman. She is like sex, she's that good."

I was looking for people after the banquet to take pictures with COUGH COUGH JD & Troy!! COUGH COUGH but they seemed to have booked it! out of there lol.

the banquest was amazing.

I didn't cry until I got home and listened to the first song on the cd kaylynn made us...

New York, New York.

I am going to miss everyone so much.

tonight was amazing and the hug made it complete =]

I just found my senior pictures from all the old seniors and I read Kim Zavicar's and it almost made me cry lol, same with Ashlie's.

-SamO-
You will always be my favorite trumpet wannabe!! Haha! Have fun next yr. <3 always -Ash-

Samo,
You're apart of the drumline no matter what anyone else says.
Goodluck with the rest of high school.
I'll come visit everyone once in a while.
Keep the drummers in line for me. =)
<3 Kim


;_;

I have a lab practical on Monday on the muscle in a cat. I study by naming the muscles on my cat as I pet him, lol.

yeah my mind just went blank lol...

24 more days and I wont have to care about anyone that i don't want to care about anymore.

omg, yesss. lol

I am just going focus on school then freaking graduate and only come back for those i like.

I got so much done this weekend, but not everything.

I called EMU and signed up for fast track conviniently on senior skip day. So I wont miss my first hour but i'll get to miss my 3 hour on. Its at 11:45 i think, so that actualy means i'll only be missing lunch and band, but then that'd defeat the purpose of me scheduling it on senior skip day...since lunch and band aren't senior classes....lol

I finished my senior wills and gave Josh's mom my invintation.

I ordered the t-shirt i've been wanted forever off-line.


lol

I got my cat food, fish, and crickets.

I got the Lemony Snicket book i've been wanting.  Horseradish Bitter Truths You Can't Avoid. It's not a story, the introduction is, but the rest is just quotes, but they're cool.

I just gave Zoey a bone.

I just didn't get my shoes or jewlery for prom.